Tired and Transforming

Do you have a principle that you will fight for no matter what happens? Do you ever get tired of fighting for it? For me, the right answer would be no, but now I don't have the strength to fight for it anymore.

I didn't know that I'll ever reach that point in my life that I'd be puffing and panting and ultimately giving up. It's not in my nature. But now, I'm starting to stop caring about things anymore.

If there is such a thing as a morphological transformation from being human to being an artificial intelligence, I think this could feel like this. Basically, the neuro transmission that fires up human emotions to and from that particular part in the brain, just stops reaching its destination.

You become part of an industrialized nation where the most important things is to build, acquire and build and acquire some more. It's like a neverending ladder where you keep reaching for the top, but the top doesn't exist. The reasons that you made climb up the ladder is essentially the battery that doesn't know when to run out. You lose sight of what's important to you, and eventually, the human part of you dies.