Welcome Love

It's just so sad that when people "mature" or when people get into "adulthood," we tend to fear a lot of things. Everything has to be planned. Everything has to be perfect. Everything has a cause and effect documents laid out. I mean, nothing wrong with that, but when it comes to matters of the "heart" (I tend to call it matters of the "oxytocin - laden brain."), you can't really plan for it perfectly.

How many times have you heard people say "By the time I'm 25, I plan to fall madly deep inlove."? Zero. Coz falling inlove, no matter how you look at it, cannot be planned. I think that's why people are always caught off-guard and people do crazy things when they do. But crazy or not, you have to do something (in my opinion anyways). You just don't fall inlove then decide right away that it's not gonna work, that realisticly the relationship is doomed from the start, blah, blah, blah. We fear the unknown, right? In the real world (scientifically speaking), how do doctors cure phobia? By reintroducing the fear stimulus a lil bit at a time to the patient. That's how people should approach love, in my opinion. Baby steps. I mean, really, you can't download love at will (oh God, if only we could, eh?). You can't buy it from the store. You can't find it even if you look hard, coz it finds you. And if the opportunity comes, you better do something about it. Welcome it, at least. Do not kick its ass outta door right away. At least give it a chance, yknow. Coz if you don't, you'll live day after day of regretting that time when you shove love outta door.

Spotless Mind

I was browsing the magazines at the bookstore a few days ago and I found an interesting article: It appears that it is now possible (sort of) to erase bad memories and traumatic events from the mind.

What happens is (if I understand this correctly), a pill can now adjust the levels of stress hormones that the brain secretes when it remembers a traumatic event. This lessens the physiological effect on the patient's body. Then a "newly-edited memory" is now stored in the brain. So when the patient remembers this same event, it is now different. The traumatic details will be lessened.

While all of there is all good in a glance, what about the other implications? What if somewhere along the way, the patient needed to remember the event as it exactly happened for legal purposes (say, the patient is a witness in a court proceeding)? Or what if the patient needed to remember the events very vividly for other purposes?

But whattabout the patient's sake? Is it humane to let this person live his/her life day after day very miserable and fear-laden? Is it humane to let this person being unable to live his/her life the way any normal human being could?

What do you think?

Tired and Transforming

Do you have a principle that you will fight for no matter what happens? Do you ever get tired of fighting for it? For me, the right answer would be no, but now I don't have the strength to fight for it anymore.

I didn't know that I'll ever reach that point in my life that I'd be puffing and panting and ultimately giving up. It's not in my nature. But now, I'm starting to stop caring about things anymore.

If there is such a thing as a morphological transformation from being human to being an artificial intelligence, I think this could feel like this. Basically, the neuro transmission that fires up human emotions to and from that particular part in the brain, just stops reaching its destination.

You become part of an industrialized nation where the most important things is to build, acquire and build and acquire some more. It's like a neverending ladder where you keep reaching for the top, but the top doesn't exist. The reasons that you made climb up the ladder is essentially the battery that doesn't know when to run out. You lose sight of what's important to you, and eventually, the human part of you dies.